I never know what I might capture when I hold my camera near the wet sand and blindly capture my intended subject. It is a freeing way to photograph a subject (despite the peripheral attention needed to keep track of the incoming tide). But almost always something special happens when I have done my best to fix my settings and then swing my camera low to the ground, press the shutter button, and ultimately surrender to the outcome. Even the imperfect, out-of-focus, becomes beautiful.
A few days ago I listened to an actor talk about his craft during a lengthy interview. He was asked how much of his work depended upon being prepared or relying upon plain old intuition. He gave the audience this little gem (my paraphrase): Some actors may have a natural intuitive instinct about them to be great performers, but this is more a rarity than a common occurrence. I have found that when you have done the hard work at learning your craft you will find that when you arrive at having to play a certain role you can let go and have faith that the intuitive part is freed up to do its thing. The result is often not something that you could have even planned. In fact, it is often better than what you could have contrived had you relied upon the technical formulas of the craft.
I think I am learning this is what faith really looks like as it is played out in my life. Yes, sometimes it requires giant leaps into the unknown, when I am brought to a place where my efforts and logic are turned upon their heads and I choose to surrender to making a choice to take the hand of God and follow him. But honestly, in my lifetime I have only experienced that kind of faith two or three times. They are imprinted upon my soul as life changing moments, with a clear before and after. The rest of my faith journey has been learning what the actor shared….that I can spend a life time leaning on the “auto” function, settling for mediocre auto-like results, or I can put my mind to doing my part (which entails hard work, effort and discipline) so that God can do his….which is often watching me do more than I ever thought I could.
If, in the acting world, intuitiveness is refined by hours of hard work, then I think that in my daily life, faith is exercised when I trust that God can use what I have. Of course he is known for working in us despite what we have or do not have, the work we have done or not done, but how much more of an exciting and abundant life can be mine when I watch him lead me into places where he and I can work together. Where I can know that I have done my part and then have faith that he will do his.
Makes me really ponder over what work I need to tend to knowing that he has been patiently waiting to work with me, and through me, all along.